THE GHOST IS BACK

Your blogger who loves to ghost you already graduated. What great news, am I right? I don’t know, maybe?

It is funny that I always return to you in letters, but this is the only way to express my thoughts. So, please forgive me for bombarding you with long messages as if my absence only took a couple of weeks.

I had come up again with pathetic reasons why I was inactive, “because I was rebranding my website, and it took me more time than I planned it to be,” or “my studies had kept me busy with our thesis all while being an intern and an officer at our school’s organization.” Those were my reasons. However, sometimes, I think I was just too lazy to open my account to write and interact. Either way, I just knew that I was making them all work out as I was faking this adulting phase till I could say that I made it.

For your information, I am still in the process of making meaning out of life. I can tell that life is hard, and the only poem I had created from it was, “The world flows like a poetry in front of me…” It was unfinished, and so is the world. Just kidding, I leave you be to expound it. I am already tired, and I just turned 22. I do me, you do you. HAHAHAHA.

On the brighter side, we are nearing the end of 2023. In less than one year, I already had been a student who did everything a college student should experience, an organization officer who writes thousands of post-event summaries and minutes of meetings, an intern who met great friends unexpectedly, a fresh grad who enjoyed doing nothing, and finally being an assistant at an office somewhere who had many realizations that this post could ever sum up.

I had performed various roles this year, and it was fun. I hope you also did enjoy yourself, and if not, we still have two months to build a well-lived year. You could still go out and play. Make risky choices. Confess to someone you love them deeply. Book that vacation you had been planning to go to last year. Adopt the dog you saw at the shelter. Romanticize the life you are living as if you are on TikTok. You know, do everything that will make you happy. I know we will succeed in everything that we always hope to become, and I know we are fulfilling those dreams at our own pace.

Take this as an example. I am now in a different chapter of my life. I still don’t know what I should be doing as a fresh graduate experiencing the real deal in life. I still can’t decide what my goals are five years from now or if my website and other social media sites will still fulfill their purpose after I turn a year older. I am still on my review for the board exam this year, and I am still contemplating whether I made the right decisions. Sometimes, I am still that eight-year-old girl who needs her mom, and most of the time, I want to be alone. I am all everything at once. It made life feel unreal, but somehow, I had learned to love all its twists and turns. At the end of it all, we all gamble despite our anxieties, and I know this will lead us to the destination we always long to go to.

As I end this letter, I am allowing you to raise your brows and cringe as I share with you my AI yearbook photos. I want to share this milestone with you because I cannot just disseminate my graduation photos. So, please accept this nonsense.

I likewise want to take this time to extend my gratitude to you for just being there. When I was all alone, I had this page to somehow articulate my thoughts. You welcomed me. You shared your insights with me. So, thank you for all those years where your words and those I read on your page kept me going. You all had inspired me in so many ways you would not imagine, and look at how far we had come. May you keep sharing your writings with the world, for I know for people like us, we bleed to exist, and for us to bleed, we need to write.

with all the love, travelerspeaking en lettres

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